In April 2012, I overdosed. I was living in San Francisco and had started therapy. I had been very near that point for a long time, but a combination of starting therapy and watching/feeling a lifetime of trauma surface to fly around me…
I have recently made the decision to move away from a friendship with someone that I love deeply. I made no announcement. I just took a quiet step back and made a visual disconnection in my mind of my own energy.
Occasionally I will encounter someone who is married and has a family and they just pity me. “Oh, that must be so sad.” But the truth is, for me, it rarely is sad. Why? Because I get to finish reading a book. I get to chose what movie I want to see.
We can thrive from a deep well-spring of joy that bubbles up from within – a joy that is not dependent upon external factors (but that can be covered up or hidden by outer circumstances if we shift our focus from internal to external).