And isn’t it ironic, that all this time I couldn’t give you what it was that I had asked for? But believe me, I am listening now. And I’m sorry for targeting you as the one who caused my heart to spill blood.
I saw where I’d been holding myself back, and how I’d been holding back since I was a child. “Let the adults do it”, they’d say. So never did I try. I got comfortable watching. I looked away when things seemed too challenging.
So I built a really big shield. A shield of shy. A shield of aloof. A shield of not speaking my feelings, my words, my truth. Because the things I saw and felt and heard were were not what a young girl was meant to think and feel and hear.
While I feel like I’m on fire with so much passion and purpose, my longtime lover and life partner has not been at all supportive. I am used to her holding me up, but all I am feeling right now is jealousy…
In this episode of the Where is My Guru Show with Jessica Durivage, guest and fellow The Urban Howl contributor Laura Larriva encourages us to nurture our relationship with the unknown or as she calls it “the mystery.”