All you are feeling is completely normal, and I was standing right there with you, legs closed tightly and lost in milk-soaked motherhood, eight years ago. Thank you for sharing a problem affecting so many new parents.
To follow one’s bliss into the great abyss. There’s no thread that can guide you or tick tock that will find you. It asks only for your hand, lift your feet from the sands of anything familiar. Surrender.
I have recently made the decision to move away from a friendship with someone that I love deeply. I made no announcement. I just took a quiet step back and made a visual disconnection in my mind of my own energy.