By Patricia Biesen
I came to a difficult period in my life where I thought maybe I should have an alter ego. Beyonce has Sasha Fierce. Clark Kent has Super Man. Then there’s Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, but an alter ego need not be evil.
As spiritual author and teacher, Sonia Choquette, recommends giving your higher self a name. This practice makes doing the near impossible a bit easier.
For me, my alter ego is tougher, calmer and so much cooler than I am. She has flame red victory rolls, tattoos and the perfect cat’s eye eyeliner.
She’s kind of like the red-haired version of the original Barbie. She is a true badass. Who, unlike myself, is never nervous, never comes undone, and never worries. She is adventurous.
She is the most interesting woman in the world.
She doesn’t believe in scarcity. She believes there is always enough.
Enough interesting people, enough jobs, enough money, enough men, enough good apartments, enough good. She just holds the space and BAM! There it is. She manifests really good things!
My alter ego exudes the sexy confidence of Mae West, the calm of Deepak Chopra, and the fighting spirit of Ripley,
“I don’t like myself,
I’m crazy about myself.”
Some would say your alter ego might actually be your true self.
I am definitely not my alter ego. But, what I learned from my alter ego is that I just want to be more fearless.
I want to live life in techno color not in tones of gray and beige.
Speaking of color, as a visual artist, I personify people I know as certain colors. My alter ego is a fiery shade of red but also the kind of red that can sometimes hurt your retinas, much like the popular hyper red dyed hair spotted on supermodels of the 90s.
I think of myself as yellow — which is gentle, soft, weak, timid, sensitive. Then it hit me, why not be more like orange? Orange is the warmest of colors. If red is hot, orange is warm. I did a little color research and here is what I found out:
Orange is a power color. It is one of the healing colors. It also stimulates enthusiasm and creativity. Orange means vitality with endurance.
People who like orange are usually thoughtful and sincere. Orange combines the energy of red and the happiness of yellow. Orange is always friendly and welcoming. It provides emotional energy that you can give to others, including compassion, passion and genuine warmth.
Orange lusts for life and its laughter is full-bodied. It promotes happiness and optimism, helps balance general well being, and broadens the mind to cope with life and career.
Sounds good to me!
I thought more about my alter ego during a recent meditation.
I had a vision as my mind often does when I attempt to meditate properly. I saw my alter ego’s beautiful exterior but then I opened her up and she had a completely empty shell.
I opened myself up and it was as if I were opening a case that was too full of worries, thoughts and emotions. It was overly packed actually.
You could call me an emotional hoarder. “I need to keep that emotion in case I need to use it for a painting or something!”
Then I thought, what if we shook hands and decided to play together? What if we chose the right stuff to put in this empty shell?
The right merchandise that has a place for everything.
Let’s call it a rebirth and not a remodel.
For more self-study, The Urban Howl recommends The Inner Voice of Love: A Journey Through Anguish to Freedom.