“She is so bright and glorious that you cannot look at her face or her garments for the splendor with which she shines. For she is terrible with the terror of the avenging lightning, and gentle with the goodness of the bright sun; and both her terror and her gentleness are incomprehensible to humans…. But she is with everyone and in everyone, and so beautiful is her secret that no person can know the sweetness with which she sustains people, and spares them in inscrutable mercy.”
―Hildegard von Bingen’s vision of the Feminine Divine, from Scivias, III, 4.15, translated by Mother Columba Hart, O.S.B. and Jane Bishop
Vilified, gang-raped,
slaughtered, hung,
stripped, drowned, irradiated,
dismembered,
shot, acid-splashed
locked up, stoned,
beaten, strangled, infected,
impregnated, aborted,
abandoned, kicked,
run out of town,
molested, slashed,
marked, maimed, slammed,
terrorized, murdered, scarred,
Left
for
dead
A punchline
Emphasis on ‘punch’
Not line
You’ve
chopped off her hands &
cut out her tongue to silence her
You’ve
bound her feet
until they became tiny white mice
no good for running away
You’ve
blackened her eyes,
broken her bones,
smacked her unconscious &
smeared her body on the side of the road
Yet
Still
She rises
like copper sap, like a sockeye salmon returning to spawn,
like a field of sunflowers waving to passing cars
She emerges
Queen bee-Kali,
all serve her & the delicate hive mind
Soldiers march, feet sticky with her glow
The green fuse of clover honey
Born of each petal and tender leaf
Still
She gives birth
She incubates, simmers, protects
the iridescent seahorse tucked inside a mermaid’s purse
Still
she dares,
she opens her mouth
sings, whiskey-voiced, scented with rose water
sings lost hymns & lullabies & childhood nursery rhymes
She burns sandalwood, candles
& remembers her dead
marking her face with ashes
Witch, goddess, woman-child, crone
warrior-woman, snitch, whore, scribe, maiden, artist, writer, mother —
She spins trickster tales, fool stories, & her own particular color of moonlight
She brings on meteor showers & watches the sun slipping into sight again
Each day
She flies – like a murmuration of starlings –
Hair black, laced with silver
Face indigo
She comes to me
In the golden-gray of a running dream
shimmering and silent and full
Tell them, she says
Tell them I am in your bones,
your blood,
your soft tissue –
Tell them
they cannot
kill me.
Shavawn’s writing has appeared in Trickster Literary Journal, Poet Lore, Olentangy Review, Black Fox Literary Magazine, The Huffington Post (Huffpo 50) and Living Buddhism, to name just a few.
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