I’ll Never Abandon Myself {Like He Did Me} And Never Again Wonder My Worth
By Ashley Cappelletty
A Howl For All My Fellow Sisters With “Daddy Issues”
I remember at 6 years old “burying” my dad.
My way of trying to put him in the past.
I would have traveled to see him.
I begged him to want me and it felt like he didn’t want to.
Piece by piece,
I am collecting me up off the ground where he abandoned me.
Piece by piece,
I am filling the holes he burned in me.
I will never walk away, I will take care of me.
I love myself.
Piece by piece, the Goddess restored my faith,
That a man can be kind and a father could stay.
All of his words fall on deaf ears.
I am healing myself and now he wants to be Dad?
But my love it isn’t free, it has to be earned.
When he didn’t want me, I felt worthless.
I fell far from his tree.
I will never abandon myself like he did me.
I will never again wonder my worth.
Unlike him, I’m putting me first.
I will never break my heart or walk away.
I will take care of things, I will love me.
In the ways he could not and did not want to.
Piece by piece, the Goddess restored my faith
That a man can be kind and father should be GREAT.
For more self-study, The Urban Howl recommends Tears to Triumph: The Spiritual Journey from Suffering to Enlightenment
