What a conundrum this life is…
We make so many decisions based on money. Do we have enough to do this or haven’t we? Will we spend it all or won’t we? And yet someday, one day, unexpectedly or expectedly, we all end up in the same place regardless of possessions.
There are those who will hoard it till their last breath, those with not so much may sometimes go to any lengths for it, and those who struggle, hoping for a miracle or breakthrough. And what does it all even mean at the end of the day, anyway? Some will have lived a life less than meaningful, having used up all their Time in pursuit of the Bank Balance.
Some will have chased opportunities that vanished in the air. Would they wish they spent more Time with the ones they love? Some decide it’s much too hard and will not use the Time they have.
They end up existing in a hollow shell, dreaming rather than doing.
What will it all mean someday when eyes that shut and open a thousand times,
shut for the last time and see regrets littering a pathway of what could have been? Will we wonder what our legacy was? Wonder what we did with our Time? Will we ask if we gave away anything of value?
Did we spend Time with our children? Did we chase endless desires without an underline, bent on leaving something behind? Did we ever appreciate the moments that we had or sit down to just be still? Will we need to die to realize how precious our Time really is? Or will we realize the Gifts that lie in these present moments?
There are so many questions that invade my mind as I watch what happens so frequently around me. It helps me to see so clearly with an insight like never before that what lies at the root of it all are fears that are multiplied. Lying coiled in the still but silent realms of darkness nobody questions because everyone runs the race.
If we are lucky one day we will find the answers to this and realize that money really had nothing to do with it.
Finding it was just another tool, gift, an energy to exchange, that when money flowed, it was to hearts already flowing. Time says, “Live in the present. Find the wisdom and treasure contained within the ticking seconds that I Gift to you.”
They who are held prisoner by greed and avarice will maim and kill for the sake of it. Many who will willingly hurt another for “wealth” blinded by the coldness of that security blanket. If they would come to the end one day and see it all, do you wonder what Time would have made them see?
I wonder if they would do it all over again? Leave hard-to-remove stains on the tapestry they wove? Will we ever know the depths of each mark we make? Will we ever realize the ripple effect from each action? When we choose love of that which is on the outside versus finding all the wonder that lies within each soul.
I bear the sidelong glances and the snide laughter from those who do not understand me or my thoughts, because I can see a beautiful new world and way of living; a place where we don’t need to fight to be understood. Until then, there are questions that will need to be asked to prepare for space from whence the answers will come.
For more self-study, The Urban Howl recommends The Confidence Gap: A Guide to Overcoming Fear and Self-Doubt.
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