By Jemima House MIND RISE

The Sacrifice: Our Need For Deep Connection After The Brutality Of Waking Up


Watching the Brett Kavanaugh hearings, it struck me how many of the people questioning him sounded unsure and anxious.

He was clearly used to being in command and was struggling with the contrast. He also comes across like a bit of a bully. I’m pretty sure they felt that.

He was also flailing around in uncertainty because his status as a privileged, white male and the unquestioned wielding of his own authority no matter what, is under threat. When being questioned about drinking and having no memory, he barely said no before turning it around and asking the woman posing the question if she had done that.

Now, I don’t know the usual setup for this kind of thing (a hearing) but I do know that had a woman done similarly, that move would have ended her chances of being taken seriously.

Whether it was frustrated and heartfelt protestations of innocence, or plain disrespectful and irritated reactivity, who can know. But it was so painful to watch these last breaths of patriarchal righteousness wheeze out of the system that still has its hands clasped around the neck of a woman who has already been traumatised.

Who is the lamb and who is the knife?

I feel sad for Kavanaugh — he’s sacrificial too.

I feel no malice whatsoever to him.

He comes from a time when this kind of shit was no big deal, when probably his truest thought around that incident was that it was a laugh, and if he’d really upset her she would have said or done something — not realising that the power dynamics made it near impossible for that to take place. Or maybe the thought of her just didn’t cross his mind again afterward. The experience of a female being of so little consequence — and he was so used to his privileged male status of doing and getting whatever he wanted with no repercussions.

I can totally see how it would feel unfair to be held accountable for this now — to have your safe, powerful, carefully arranged life brought into disarray, for your unquestionable authority and freedom to be, say, and do whatever you wanted to be questioned.

Yes, it seems like someone changed the rules part way through the game. It must be disconcerting — I genuinely mean that. I think the man is confused that he is being held accountable in this time for something he would likely think was horrible and wrong if it happened to his daughter now — but that was just a usual drunken night in another time gone by.

Why was it acceptable then? Because…conditioning. And no one chooses to be conditioned, it just is.

You don’t need to go very far back from the time of the event to see what sort of attitudes and behaviours were normal for men around women — the 1950’s? Don’t get me started.

Watching this hearing made me feel sick, angry, and sad, so I stopped but I’m happy I saw some of it.

It feels pivotal.

Waking up can feel brutal sometimes.

The world is changing and it’s always sad that injuries are incurred and lives are irrevocably altered in battle.

But that is the price of change.

If nothing changes, nothing changes. Connection is the antithesis of trauma and dysfunctional power trips — why do you think we all crave it so much? When we’re connected deeply, there is no other. We know that pain for one means pain for all.

If we want more harmony and more agency, we would all do well to be relentlessly honest with ourselves and commit to connecting with others from this place. Both men and women. We are all human beings.

Photo by Carolina Heza on Unsplash

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Jemima House

Raised in a strictly religious family until the age of 17, Jemima has had a strong awareness of philosophy and spirituality for as long as she can remember. She has always been drawn toward the fundamental psychology of the human experience, what prevents us enjoying life and how all of this is expressed by and contained within the physical body. Ever deeper understanding about perception, communication and connection fascinate and drive her work. The notion that a pleasurable and meaningful life is everyone’s birth-right fuels an avid exploration of deep experiential learning, both in nature and with other humans. The knowledge gleaned from this curious way of being informs her writing and teaching of yoga as a way of living that encompasses consciousness, health, connection and creativity. A natural and prolific creative writer, she is also trained in Fine Art, Yoga, NLP and Hypnotherapy and well-versed in naturopathic nutrition, psychology and various traditional teachings that underpin wellness. Jemima creates spaces for truth and presence which are the precursors for deep healing and authentic connection. She has developed a unique form of restorative yoga that augments emotional, physical and mental strength by honouring the residue left from conditioning and life experience, so we might reduce suffering and live more fully. Her first book: Magic & Ordinariness: Modern Day Yoga Wisdom for Better Connections outlines how the eight-fold path of yoga can be applied to all aspects of modern living for more enjoyment, equanimity and peace. When the layers dissolve, our true nature is revealed, along with more creativity, pleasure and vitality. Currently involved in European yoga retreats, teaching yoga in education and charity sectors - with a special interest in supporting women to reclaim their agency, mentoring, coaching, mothering and writing – always, always writing. Connect with her on Instagram and Facebook.

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