I never got to hold you
or call you mine to keep
I never got to rock you
Or sing you lullabies to sleep
I never got to know you
Or play hide and seek
I never got to name you
Or remind you tears are never weak
I never got to
Love you
So wide and deep
I never got to cheer
As you crawl, walk, and leap
I never got to make you
Birthday cakes
And comb your hair soft and sleek
I never got to tell you
How strong you are
And everything within
Is yours to keep
I never got to celebrate you
Or mourn you
Or share you
Or let you go
You never got to
Suck your thumb
Smile and play the drums
You never got to
Spell your name
Or watch yourself glow
As you kiss yourself in the mirror
And year by year grow
You’re just another victim
I’m finally realizing
All you never were
And what I never got to be
I was the best with the given situation
And that’s enough for me
I ask your spirit for forgiveness and understanding
In peace I do release
All that we never could be
And respect all that we were
In those precious and private moments
For the very small
Treasure of time
I knew you were mine
Photo by Luis Galvez on Unsplash
For more self-study, The Urban Howl recommends It’s OK That You’re Not OK: Meeting Grief and Loss in a Culture That Doesn’t Understand.
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